amethyst ❤ dairy

❤:'( 30.1.2012

2012-02-02T00:53:00.003+08:00

the last day of january

i don't know since when,we argue..
haih,this time really we both getting crazy.

you just simply broke the promises just when i'm turn around.
i felt i'm useless.

i remember i just walked away,
firecracker sounds non-stop,it look pretty on the dark sky
it should be very happy and lovely
but my heart was bleeding..

like the drama,you came to me.
madly,angryly....crazyly yelling at me.
i never saw you being like this before
fear...
shock..
scare..
sad...
cry out loud..
drifting with your car,
more fear~
i still remember you yelled: 'IT'S ALL MY FAULT'

ame,of course..
''beh tahan''
shouted back to you,untill she don't even know what was she shout at...
punch her hand on the car,take out her favourite ring throw to you.
she totally mad,she said ''broke up''
you looked at her,speechless
its deeply heart in her heart shouting you at the moment and saying the two words
what can she do?
she felt she was too childish,what her did all times was not right.
in his eyes,it was controlling,in her's eye it was caring

other than cry,i don't know what can i do.
i wondering,
am i really did wrong,how could i make myself in trouble?
it just a god damn fuck ciggarette!!
how could i so mad because of it?
im asking myself why can't just i don't care everything like others girls did?
hell.....

you stopped car,
hold her hand,put back the ring
apologize with a hug
god damn,she was blank
how could she make her loved one trouble
she decided not to care about it anymore,forgot all those promises
yes! she did...and she is trying so hard
god bless her,please.
she hope her men can do everything for as she always did to him

=)

amethyst 2/2/2012 1:11am

❤2012❤

2012-01-18T15:15:00.002+08:00

玛雅（有写错吗？）预言的一年到了，大家是否在惆怅呢？还是努力地让生活更精彩？我却发现好多人结婚去了~要唱‘朋友们都结婚去了’

相隔半年的部落格，发生了好多好多事哦~
开心，不开心~都有吧。

工作：
已经不在那遥远的地方工作了~找到了新工作，还以为。。。。
结果还是掉入陷阱，对于好胜的我。被‘炒鱿鱼’不是件3，5天能接受的事><''
要到新年，没工作是件痛苦的事呢！加上自己很多债务呀~
只好硬着头皮找兼职。*告诉自己我还行

感情：
他送了我一只紫色的手机~
由于智能手机能百用，自然把事情都写进里面了。
。。。
以为一切都会如我想像的那么完美，原来‘nothing is perfect’ 这句话一点都没错呢！
他，很好。。。很多事都迁就我，也许是自己个性问题，再有耐力的人也会受不了我。。
结果，电视剧中的画面出现了。。第三者==''
而且是在他自己还没发现事，我就大概猜得到。。
漫长的夜晚，哭得稀里哗啦，他，更是不知所措。
一度想放弃，但却还是不忍心~（老毛病发作）

朋友：
继续感情，熟悉的朋友该懂我什么意思~（更本没什么看好不好）
但专家说，自言自语对身体好^^
❤
我恨自己，相信他，不相信认识十年的朋友。。
对不起~
我被爱冲昏了头=(
但现在，侥幸地。。大家还是好朋友，大家都健健康康~
不一样的是，蘑菇小姐找到了一个好码头~哈哈！还拿了车牌，也有车了~
以后大家出去都方便多了~

家人：
时过境迁，学习信任也得从零开始~
妈生日那天，召见了‘他@.@''
一切都算顺利吧~
一年了，终于大家都接受他。。。
反而自己打从心底，就有那么一点点质疑他了
到底需要多久时间才能康复呢？

21岁：
❤❤❤
耶！我21了。。。（buuuuu~有什么大不了）
今年是我过得最豪华的生日呢！
好多礼物啊~~哈哈！！
妈送我57钥匙~好贵~~~~❤但很喜欢~
他送了我第一颗戒指。。。=)
看的出他很努力要证明他是爱我的，毕竟利用一半的薪水来筹备我的生日，不是谁谁都能办得到啊！
我问自己，放下了吗？

未来：
2月会开始新工作~
拜托，一切顺顺利利好吗~:')
3月会到台湾去旅行呢！
期待~~~~~~~
但也很烦~没钱怎么去啊？！！==lll
加油！57会带给我好运的！！

大雨/18.1.2012 15:56

holidays~!!

2011-06-21T09:19:00.003+08:00

finally~
my holidays gone...
everyone awaiting 17th party~finally over~

celebrate wenyi's birthday at bar b Q plaza~
haha......eat until they closed~XD
after that chilling at over time~
having birthday cake and give her present~
everything gone smooth and nice~^^ happy 21th birthday~

the next,my popeye's birthday~
i'm headache for 2weeks already~
don't know what to buy for him~@.@
at last i decided to hand made a photo frame by paper clay~
it takes me 4days to do it~@.@
luckyly i manage to done it~ happy 25th birthday^^
the next day party at Movida~
everyone was crazy and have fun!!!hahaahah.....really enjoy it~

weekend spend at port dickson~
just walk around~eat~sleep~rest~
feel good~wheeee~~~our first trip~i hope we got the next trip very soon~!!!
really....
i do hope......aiksss~

tuesday blue==

can't wait for it~!!!

2011-06-12T01:54:00.003+08:00

its june
i don't get much salary for this month=(
but still i believe that i can survive~ LOL

time is just so fast,
soon...next week is popeye birthday~
i don't have much $$,
i just hope that i could give popeye an unforgetable birthday~
as he did to me~^^
our 1st trip~1st journey~
i wish i could have more than hundred journey with my popeye~^,*

wentto sg.wang shopping today,
wow!!
crazy tired~as i went to yah kee's birthday party last night@.@
morning wake up goes to work just like a zombie =X
i can't imagine if i work 9-2am and the next day go to work!!! hell~~
bought some cloth~yeah~~ can wearon popeye's birthday~

hope everythings alright~
gambateh~

all i got is zero~

2011-05-29T14:03:00.003+08:00

its been 3weeks i work at puchong,
time passes so fast,didn't realize it~
my colleague was resign last thursday~
i'm in the war alone~nobody could help~
fortunately she did teach me some of her work~
so far i still can manage it~

***

popeye can't stand for that job anymore~
already being zombie 2weeks!! pity~=(
he decided to resign~and
popeye will start his 3D course next month 13th~
sound exciting that back to college again~haha

***

next month will be a crazy month,
wenyi,popeye and may's birthday~
i'm gonna pokai !!!

***

my sis-in-law asked to go taiwan on next year~
i say YES!!
i don't know why,i just feel that is time to start my journey~
i know i will be going to china this end of the year~
i hope is december~as in,i don't hope it clash with my anniversary with popeye *wrink*
at the same time,i hope i can go travel with popeye too!!XD

***

sigh~
since so many activities~
and 1st week of may i havent start working..
this month i dont get the exact ssalaryT.T
how to survive?
zero.................

hope everything going smooth and success~
thanks god!! =)

weekend~

2011-05-17T10:03:00.002+08:00

finally,its weekend~
my lovely BBQ day is just around the corner~ haha

going out with friends and my dear to buy food~ happy!!

i dint drive my car back saturday night~
my dad make noise there~
haih~
there just only weekend i can relax and hang out with friend~
come on!! ==''

i'm too free now~
manager and boss not here for whole week~

i'm wondering how long i can stand for this kind of life~
wake up~
jam~
work~
jam~
back home~
eat~
sleep~
what else??

amethyst gambateh~~

working life~

2011-05-10T22:26:00.002+08:00

today is my second day of work~
i just can say that,
office work really not suitable for me~
so,now i realise that why wenyi and yoshi always complain me about work...
because of sitting at ''office'' @.@
its killing............

but,
i'm a freshy...
i don't even know how to handle photostat machine~
just let everything start from zero~

*outstation
manager told me i may follow her to johor to have a look for their factory~
and then i have to contact china factory people~
sound difficult~

*clerk
i realise that a post in ''fashion designer'' doesn't mean u're just sit there and draw~
you have to do things that clerk will do too~
well,i'm freshy.....
so i should learn~

again.....
god bless me all the best~
i believe this kind of life style continue on,
day by day
date by date
time will pass so fast.....
hope my salary will increase more after they comfirm me^^
gambateh~

开工大吉~

2011-05-08T23:51:00.002+08:00

❤wow~
so fast~
tomorrow is the day~
i'm start to work!!!

wahahahaha~
god bless me all things gone nicely and smooth~.~

have to get up at 5:30 to prepare~
6am breakfast with popeye~

gambateh olive~^^

half

2011-05-04T01:51:00.003+08:00

一首很写实的歌词~

给单身的人-很贴切
给谈恋爱的人-很幸福

喝酒的伴一起看電影的伴
早午晚餐的那個伴
朋友不能留得太晚明天要上班
唱K的伴一起去旅行的伴
聽懂我的笑話的伴
我的生活只差那個人就美滿 (但我不差那个人，because i found you）

快樂少一人分享快樂就只剩一半
喝一碗湯心怎麼都不夠暖
這張被單這張睡床
再舒服都覺得太寬
沒人分享幸福就只剩一半
就算把日子都填滿
節日卻提醒我孤單(我不孤单，因为有你）

沒有想法有想法又能怎樣
只能寫部落格整晚 =）
幾個留言安慰不了心裡的遺憾
沒有負擔原來也是種負擔
自由多得讓人心慌
你羨慕我那要不要跟我交換

快樂少一人分享快樂就只剩一半
喝一碗湯心怎麼都不夠暖
這張被單這張睡床
再舒服都覺得太寬
沒人分享幸福就只剩一半
努力把日子都填滿
別來提醒我的孤單（所以现在你懂为什么你没时间陪我，我那么不开心吗？）

快樂少一人分享快樂就只剩一半
喝一碗湯心怎麼都不夠暖
這張被單這張睡床
再舒服都覺得太寬
沒人分享幸福就只剩一半
就算把日子都填滿
沒人知道我多孤單（你会知道吗？）

我不害怕孤单，但这首歌却令我觉得没有你我会孤单~
我不怕孤单，但我害怕有一天你令我变得孤单~
我不怕孤单，但我不想孤单~

你，孤单吗？

>< i don't feel happy

2011-05-03T02:07:00.002+08:00

i don't know why,
i know you were busy,
i know you not free,
but i feel not happy you ignore me.....

am i right or am i wrong?
i tried so hard to stand on your side and think about you....
haih......

what can i do?
lost....

❤ labour day^^

2011-05-01T02:04:00.003+08:00

getting awake by the sound of tv~
i slept on living room's sofa last night=P

early morning,my dad ask me is the job at sg.besi success....
and then...
he ask me if work at puchong how many i can pay for car loan~
super out of sudden@.@
hmmm,is a salesman's car....since he not gonn work soon~

butif he continue work then??
LOL!!
so,now justwait and see whether the sg.besi want to hire me?
or i get car to work at puchong....
its a persona....i drove today...><

afterall,
going to 1u for fashion show~
i think this is last time.....
don't know when i will have mine fashion show! lol.....
this is last time
❤ appreciate^^

tomorrow is labour day~
popeye have to work=( pity him~
i'm going to cameron with family~
actually i feel lazy to go,
but since nothing to do.....and popeye also not free~
so,i just go.....go there snapping~hmmm
and the most important thing is i wanna buy strawberry coffee~XD haha
very nice~~~^^

hope everything will be fine for my job~ cheers^^

*god will open a window for you when all the doors are closed =)

工作狂- - - 不狂了

2011-04-30T03:13:00.003+08:00

又去面试了~
终于，
有一份是捷运能到的~
工资也不错~
=)希望成功咯~

这两天和和popeye吵架~ 但没有很严重啦~
嗯，
有时你太忙没时间陪我聊聊就算啦~
但我还是很无奈啊~
对不起=(
我知道你对我很好啊~
我也很努力地去体谅你~
比起从前，
我也变了好多好多啊~从来没想过自己会那么想得开啊~

也许是最近我因为找工作的事太烦了~
==''家人给的压力，
哎~无从解释啊~
你们的无理取闹，蛮不讲理
我厌倦了~
结果叻，
压力大，P也迟了~
@.@
曾经对工作的热忱，
如今啊~消失得无影无踪咯~

我一度想放弃自己的未来~
不要去管它什么工作38 24....
我不要做了！！！！
在家吃饱睡，睡饱吃多好~

但，
亲爱的，我想减轻你的负担~
才急着找工啊~
不然怎么帮你庆祝生日啊~
哈！
虽然知道你不会看我写的东西，（我也不想逼你看）
但我还是不要在这里写我要怎么和你度过生日~^^ （其实是懒惰写）

加油吧~工作狂~
你的精神寄托需要你~

*生命很短暂，珍惜所拥有的，活在当下；期盼未来~

happy + sad

2011-04-28T22:16:00.002+08:00

23th,the wedding...
and also me and popeye big day~
half year anniversary~^^

blow candle together at the midnight at popeye's home...
hahaha.....so tired~
rush here and there for whole day~

***

some of my resume sent out responed~
monday i went for interview~
at puchong,
i thought i may fail~
but,i success!!! @.@

so,
problem comes....
i was thinkng i could have car from sis-in-law?
but,
:where u gonna park your car?
:how you gonna take care?
:who's gonna take responsibility if accident?

and so~
i forget about that job...
but,its really good salary why i refuse?

ok,fine...
i tried another interview~
she asked me to wait for notify~

ok~
and so,
its time to talk to my parents~
in my mind,
i know them very well....they are not putting heart on me~
they only know how to blame me
they only know how to point at my false
they never stand on my side and think~
ok,
a parents care their children,i understand
but,you never communicate to me nicely
so you think i'm going to communicate with u first?
aren't you should be good example first?

oh~
fine....
if,the conclusion is,
:i don't feel like giving you a car
cause you dont know how to take care...
you dont count properly whether you can afford it
you will be like 'bird without leg'
you
you
you

bla bla bla...

i cried...
but i think back...
its kind of good thing isn't?
at lease i don't depend on you....because of the car...
and i definately will fly if i get car myself!!
just
WATCH OUT.....
i will~

haha~
so....
my status now is
-wake up
-eat
-play computer
-maybe go interview
-go out yumcha
-eat
-sleep

how good my life is~
no need to work!!!
am i giving up???!!!

yes!!! i am.....y am i so suffer of working?
i have try my best but people don't give a damn!!
so...slowly find a job that bus can reach......
slowly save money and buy car myself~!!

❤❤❤ new labby

2011-04-22T03:06:00.003+08:00

yeah~
finally i've got my laptop!!!
can do whatever i love~!!! ❤

last friday i went to pcfair for research~
grabbing lots of broucher~
final decision was toshiba i5^^

get up in the morning and jam to klcc for pcfair~
lots of people of course~
the moment we reach there~
the 'part time' promoter said left 2 piece~
wow....
i quickly grab it~hehehe

ta dang~!!
here it is~

after pyment bringing back popeye's house do start up~

so happy~!!

finally finally.....
its been 3years i'm awaiting for my labby~

even i have to pay every month by myself~
but i still need to thanks to my dear popeye~

you made my life turns good always~
❤you~^^

job job job~

2011-04-14T01:21:00.002+08:00

arghhhhhhh.....

sent out many resume~

still pending~

havent get any reply yet~

T.T

god help me please~

i really need fashion job now~~~

2 more weeks i'm gonna leave school~

how am i gonna survive huh?

top secret~

2011-04-11T03:45:00.005+08:00

popeye is back from melacca ~!!
i'm gonna shopping ~ weeee....
this is what he bought me from melacca~LOL
he thinks i need this~hahaha

i booked ticket of Rio~
having mcd before going for movie~
i was thinking whether to buy charles & keith bag or not~
god damn it..... the shop is just infront of me when i'm going to take ticket~
oops, it seems asking me to buyXD
hahahaha
unfortunately,the sales was gone...
the bag that i wanted...... no discount..haih~
but,i still buy it@.@ here it is~^^

after that went to mph~

bought a book~

hehe.....it is for our 'love album'

drop down everything that we have had together~^^

finally we choosed a book with the cover name ''do not open ,top secret''

hahaha......lazy to upload here~

sunday morning~

decided to hang out and print photo at popeye's office~

go to survey laptop price~

hmmm....

i was viewing his facebook message,i saw...
his ex text him.....
he did reply too==''
i know its just normal conversation....but
i just feel,maybe someday he will leave me ......alone><
i cried~T.T so stupid...
i think too much?? that feel is just not good to me....=(

reaching his office, but at last he did makes me wash away my worries~
busy copy photo from fb~
and arrange ~
printing~
so.....our album~
our secret~
our love journey....started to record.....

at lease,you shown me something......so,i hope what i thought will not happen~
this is it!! hoho~!!
i was thinking to print into paper and stick on the book~
oops,i forgot popeye is doing sticker....hahaha
silly me@.@

up to hundred photo we have take within half years~
wow......

nice weekend~^^

spring summer~

2011-04-09T02:23:00.002+08:00

just finish my show at sg.wang
many of our badge people did not attend ~

and i'm in a complicated mood now
facing the laptop typing...

things are weird,
the more you try to make it perfect,
the worst you getting on it...

i'm trying to get slimmer~
but,
it seems no use at all~
my leg still look big and fat!
I don't want!!

my show just now,
i'm trying to wear nicely so that i could get nice photos~
but,
at the end my eyes do not listen to me...red@.@
my pant still makes my leg look fat,
even i've try my best to make it look slim....

haih...no mood~

going to watch movie tomorrow,
and shopping...
but,
i don't have enough money~T.T
so sad.....

my mind is just like,

mentally unbalance??=(

i wish i can get a laptop,
an iphone,
a car,
and laser my eyes~

haih.....==!!!!

sick...

2011-04-08T02:49:00.003+08:00

due to the super duper hot fucking weather...

and

cold like in a freezer in the class

i'm sick...

i should sing the song ''hot and cold'' by katy perry now~

><
damn it...

reach home take bath,eat panadol..
sleep =.=zzzzz

and now....

its almost 3...

i'm awake....
aikssss

april fool - lost

2011-04-07T01:02:00.004+08:00

april...
is a lost month for me,

i havent get any full time job yet~
mean,
i still have to get money from dad,
that isn't my wish at all....

a little joke,
a small misunderstand,
they don't trust each other much~
one of our member lost too i think...
suddenly say wanna stop our friendship just because of small things...
i think she is lost too....><

the weather doesn't show good at all,
super hot and dry...
exposed to super sun 3 days...
at the end,
i'm sick==''

this month ayumi's wedding,
gotta buy shoe and bag....and a dress perhaps...
pocket empty again~@.@~~
fuhhhhh....

i'm

LOST

❤love doggy~

2011-04-06T01:56:00.003+08:00

this is my new doll~
Doggy~

popeye bought me this~
but is putting in his car~^^

popeye gonna go melacca tomorrow~
so,this cutie gotta stay my house for 3 days~

haha.....^^

saturday night

2011-04-03T00:10:00.003+08:00

今天的你，
很不一样...

但却说不出哪里有问题....
终于，
从刚刚的谈话中....
才发现你对着我原来也很无奈~

你说你今天心情不好~
我看得出~
我尽量配合，
尽量说些开心的事~

但，
就你那么无奈的语气~
我听见我的心慢慢裂开的声音~

this is my saturday night..........

blue eyes~

2011-03-30T23:20:00.004+08:00

my classmate akie is organising a beautiful eyes contest~
i saw it and feel wanna join,
but there's nobody upload their photo yet~

one hour later i saw 2 photos~
haha
.... in a mischievous mind~
i uploaded my photo on her page~ ^^

here it is ~~

with blue lace contactlense~ @.@

popeye help me promote in fb~
haha....
the first day i got 17 votes~
second day,today
i get 50 votes~!!
weeee~~~~
i hope i can win~so that i can get lens free^^ yay *.*v

******

popeye went to JB this morning~
huhu~ when i saw his car pass by infront me,
he couldn't see me~
i feel miss him so much~

><

blog time again

2011-03-29T00:29:00.003+08:00

nothing else~
just
blog again...

i drove popeye's car to school today...
parking rm9 gone....
>< petrol i pump rm20 back....*0*
lunch having mcd...
just one day gone me almost rm40~

scary movie
suddenly feel like
life....isn't so easy....

not to blame anyone but just feel that i really need to work~
desparately!!!!

popeye going to Johor on wednesday~=(
6th going to melacca~=( =(
even thats just few days~
dear~
tu me manques~

next month is the hardest one..
ayumi's wedding..... red BOOM~!!!!
gonna buy cloth for wedding
pay angpow for the dinner
wow~~~~~
can i just one month no need to worry about $???

i hope we can get through this man~!!

god bless us...

love memory~

2011-03-28T00:55:00.004+08:00

good weekend without planning~
sometimes just takes things easy~

perhaps,
i will be more happy^^

i was thinking to have a 'love memory book' with popeye~
drop down our sweetest memory~

shit,
i brought small printer but i forgot to bring the film==''

its ok,
maybe i could get another nicer memo book~^^

dinner at popeye's house~

watch tv~

play monopoly cards~

fighting~

laughing~

screaming~

hug and sleep tight together~

this is my weekend~
happy and peace~

i love you~

the face-book

2011-03-26T00:31:00.002+08:00

facebook was in a lag mood last week~

but this week is getting better~

don't know since when,
facebook does show out what people posted in previous~

i saw his previous status....

he is

a romantic~

person......i guess...

i know he had been hurt by others previously...

O/S: i wouldn't do that to him....

got one status was this
'' yeeahhhhh....one month anniversary.....''

hmmm, july 16th??

wow......he wrote like that.....

but,that was pass......hmmm......i just ignore it and keep clicking another status

i saw one was
''so..popeye is in love with olive..''

*touching......

i can feel it so much~

do you??

i miss you my dear~ welcome back.....

❤豆豆的‘小白’

2011-03-22T03:09:00.004+08:00

❤
wow~

finally~

popeye's car come out~

haha....

when i open door~

i wonder how come no sound?

then i saw a white baby outside~

its cool~^^

i try to drive~ not bad not bad.....

feel good.....

but the petrol is really killing==

gotta save more@.@

***

i believe what i believe,

i don't care about your past,please....

don't lie to me....

i will give you all my support no matter what....

忧郁的紫

2011-03-21T03:33:00.003+08:00

原以为是一个美好的周末...

结果还是泡汤...

是我要求过高还是你变了

我

真的

再也分不清了~

到底....

你还会为了我做些什么？

***
习惯有人载送的日子久了~

是我变得依赖还是你累了？

不再想当我的专属‘司机’

***
习惯被你哄的日子久了~

是我变得野蛮还是你厌倦了？

不再想爱屋及乌

***
习惯你尽量配合我的日子久了~

是我被迁就惯了还是你受够了？

不再想疼惜我把我看似唯一

*我一直在等待
等待你告诉我什么是爱
我不知道如何去爱
如何守在你身旁

*amethyst*紫

但，
我不能停止去爱着你

因为那份爱

开始了.....

可以不要再让我失望吗？
难道
真的要我什么都不理
不管
不在乎吗？

如果真的有一天我做到了

那表示我不爱你了....

I don't need LV & Diamond

2011-03-19T04:30:00.004+08:00

❤ lovely friday~

reach home at 6pm after school~^^ another good day....

can dinner with popeye today~

hmmm~

popeye seems planned the weekend nicely with olive~^^

it was lovely,

i don't need LV

i don't need Diamond

i just need you to show me,

i'm the only one that you tried so hard to make me happy~

and i'm the only one you always care for~no matter what.....

just all about 0live~

all about Candy~

all about Amethyst~

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

helpless

2011-03-18T03:05:00.003+08:00

don't have good feeling today...

aiksss.....

draw whole day for one pose and one piece dress...

failure~

what to do except practice??

can someone teach me how to draw in smart way or should say

the fastest way to draw fabric and cloth by using illustrator?

its totally makes me feelhelpless man!!

><

困了~

2011-03-17T01:51:00.002+08:00

累人的一天，

一大早下雨，床很温暖~

懒洋洋~^.*

炒了一碟不中不西的米粉做早餐@.@

呆呆等雨停了才上课~

右眼不乖，

*哭*了一整天，真不好受=(

下课时，教同学玩大富翁牌~

呵呵o(∩_∩)o... 大家好像玩上瘾了~

放学后，

以豹的速度飞到乌龟速度的火车站~

赶场~哈哈^_^

beastly~

一部浪漫爱情片~

和一位认识蛮久但很少见面的朋友看~

感觉还不错啊~

看戏~晚餐~逛逛~

下一场~喝茶o(∩_∩)o...

和colledge朋友的朋友~

也是蛮久没见了~

途中还遇到两个傻婆在over time~

完了~

再等popeye载我~

回到家~一个字 ‘累’....

对着面子书会闭上眼睛那种累~

真是个犯贱的人啊~

空闲对我而言，

太无聊了~XD

2012...

2011-03-15T02:05:00.002+08:00

one and half month more~
i'm gonna leave school~

everyone were telling me that study is better than work thousand times~
but for me,
not to say so~

as in,
if no work~
i don't have income,yet
my family doesn't give me much pocket money~

2 days ago,
tragedy happened....
japan facing tsunami because of 9.0 earthquake.....
the most serious ever~
its unstoppeable~=(

the only thing that people can do is just run away~

is it 2012 really happen?
i still have lots of thing,lots of dream and desire havent done~
god bless~
please.....i know we are just a dust for God,
but only God can help us....

pray for japan.....

❤❤❤ lomography

2011-03-10T21:39:00.020+08:00

yeah~ this is my lomo camera collection~
i have bought few without realising within a year~^^

aqua pix camera~with waterproof case~

so happy when i receive this but very expensive,

after buy only get to know there is another cheaper with purple case too!! @.@ sigh~

but nvm~

this is the effect without case~^^ i like it~

robot camera~

3 lens~ until now havent use it~haha

this is sample from website~haha
yeah~!!

finally i get a classic lomo camera~ HOLGA~!!!

its purple some more~

even it is blur~

but i like the effect~

i've been tried this for many rolls~and this was 5th roll~ ~.~ lol

35mm DIY twin lens camera~

my christmas present from popeye~^^

with blur effect at the side is very nice~
OLIVE SAN~!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm gonna buy this soon~!!

its ultra wide slim camera,same with kaili's pinky

but this is purple....named olive some more~!!! i'm gonna get it!!

sample try from kaili's pinky~

haha.....its easy to use for beginner~

its been a year playing with lomography~

haha......its very interesting~

i hope diana F+ purple version will come out in the market~i'm gonna buy it~

of course fish eye too~i will buy with submarine ~

hehehehe......^^

女人总得要独立些~

2011-03-07T10:32:00.002+08:00

starting....

i don't really feel you're so important to me...

slowly,

dependent on you...

missing you.....

and slowly love you...

untill a lil over~

sometimes telling myself have to control,

its hard~

i do appreciate time we belongs together, do you?
i dont really know~
and i dont wanna judge or think what you think...
cause you telling me i needn't to do so~

sometimes i'm not willing to back home so early just because of you
i wanna see you more~
cause i don't feel it was too much...
but
last night,u seems like telling me that,
enough,we dont need to see so much time/so often~
i know you will say that i think too much or whatever...

so,
i dint talk more on that...
i just let it....
if you feel we dont see much/already enough...
then ok, really
is ok~

olive~
i really no strength already..
i've no strength to argue/discuss/say more

because i always making false thing~

当我从十一楼跳下...

2011-03-03T23:45:00.003+08:00

漆黑的房里，

但还看得清手指，

朦胧中感觉到了阳光。

什么？！
九点半！

又睡迟了=(

最近都失眠，

怎么搞的？

唉~同样的问题~
每一天在脑袋里绕着绕着~
情绪处于低落状态好几天了~

忽然间，

还未清醒的脑袋出现一个画面~

还记得两年前收过一封这样的邮件~

是朱德庸的漫画 - 跳

‘‘ 我从十一楼跳下去，

我看到十楼的恩爱夫妻在互殴.....

看到九楼坚强的peter在偷偷哭泣......

八楼丫妹发现未婚夫跟好朋友上床....

七楼的丹丹在吃抗忧郁症的药丸......

六楼失业的啊信还是每天翻7份报纸找工作.....

五楼受人尊敬的王老师在偷穿老婆的内衣.....

四楼的rose又和男朋友闹分手.....

三楼的陈伯伯每天都盼望有人来探访.....

二楼的lily还在看她结婚半年就失踪的老公照片...

在我跳下之前，
我以为我是世上最倒霉的人

现在我才知道，
每个人都有不为人之处

我看完他们之后深深觉得，
自己其实过得还不错.....

所有刚才被我看到的人都看着我

我想他们看了之后也会觉得其实自己过得还不错... ’’

回想起这邮件，
其实我过得还不错....
也许我应该理解知足常乐这道理~

凡事尽力而为就好~

i should learn from all these.....

2011-03-03T21:14:00.001+08:00

❤1、学会冷血，只对对我好的人好，对某些人，简直就是浪费感情又浪费时间。

❤2、学会比以前快乐，即使难过，也要微笑着，让别人看不穿你的伤心。

❤3、学会孤独，没有谁会把你当宝护着，要知道世界总是孤单的，地球也只有一个啊，它都寂寞那么久了，我们算什么。

❤4、学会坚强，其实一个人也可以活得漂亮，笑给别人看，哭给自己听就好。

❤5、学会忍耐，该闭嘴就闭嘴，该沉默就沉默。

❤6、学会珍惜，知心的朋友已经不多，如果再走，就真的只剩下自己了。

❤7、学会视而不见，恶心的东西选择忽视，厌恶的东西选择屏蔽，不会再有人让我不快乐。

❤8、学会满足，所谓知足常乐。想想小时候一颗糖果就可以开心一整天了。

❤9、学会独立，不能再一味的麻烦别人，自己的事自己做。

❤10、学会长大，不能再那么任性，那么幼稚，那么孩子气，多了会惹人厌的。

❤11、学会认真，认真的对人，认真的对事。

❤12、学会慎重，不该认识的人不要认识，不该插手的事不要插手。

❤ heavy rain

2011-03-03T02:24:00.003+08:00

❤ its raining~

its nice to sleep when raining....but my room don't even have window~
too bad,
i can't feel the rain
and listen to the rain drop~

its been 2 days did not meet with popeye~
i miiiiisss him~

its already march,
starting my men's coat...
after all.....will be april since it needs at lease 3weeks to done@.@

looking at the traffic,
everyday...
noted all different type of cars....
thinking when can i get it??
thinking which i want to get it~~

i believe...
i can do it,
maybe others might think i think too much,
or as they said,
: u're dreaming...
well,
i will get it one day and show you WHAT I GOT!!!

^^ peace.....
bonne nuit
❤

saving plan

2011-02-28T02:10:00.002+08:00

the feeling of got wages is so nice~^^❤
haha...
when login maybank 2 u,
amount added~
so great!! yay~❤

but,
between....
my saving plan is going on~
for multiple purpose~

human have to much of desires~
specially like me,
love to party
love to shoppe
love to eat~(remind:keep fit)

i think this time i seriously keep my $ properly~
and get some part time as i can...
since new year until now havent get any part time yet@.@

oops,
~~~~~~
lazy worm slowly come out~
i can't work on weekdays as in,
i gotta finish my coursework!!!!

gambateh ~

❤

boring sunday~ =.=

2011-02-27T18:18:00.002+08:00

a boring sunday,
get up in the afternoon,

hang on net few hours~
creating slide show...
editing....
posting....
everyone is hanging out
except me=(

well,
stay home... save $$...

hope tomorrow will be a great's day~
no monday blue please~
^^

我家是旅馆~

2011-02-27T00:30:00.003+08:00

十七岁开始，
爱和朋友逛街...
ktv，买衣服，看电影
跨年时倒数到天亮才回家
因为还在念高中，晚上外出次数并不多

十八岁念服装设计，
朋友多了，社交广了
每天早上上完课后
逛街
吃饭
也只是家常便饭~
那时搭公车，太晚回也不是那么安全
还是个灰姑娘

十九岁那年失恋了...
做什么都没劲~友人看不过就常约出门
几乎每晚都临晨才回家
喝茶喝茶喝茶，还是喝茶
后来认识了很多怡保朋友，
自然而然就不时到怡保去玩....
这已经不是夜回家，是没回家了

二十岁,

准备毕业了....
还记得当时只有三个星期准备三套衣服
很赶，加上期间又有很多show，
aifm,ifeel....
简直要命，甚至几乎一个星期没回家睡...
有时在学校，有时在豆的家

由于常常没在家，
或早出晚归
也常去club
爸妈有一次就很严厉地责骂，
当时我并没有觉得自己有错，
他们口中说我不知羞耻...我一点都不认为
在家和不在家我觉得没分别

我是个不‘粘家’的人~
对啊，无可否认.....我是的
只从上次被骂，
我再没有去豆豆家了~
=(
我想再也很难有机会互相拥抱知道睡着的感觉了吧~

为什么我会讨厌在家的感觉？
这个问题一直是我的疑惑.....
也许是在家，
没饭吃吧~
从来都没有那种家庭温暖的感觉，除了我的床~
也或许我太爱玩~

这几天情绪不稳定,
常为了小事不开心...
我不想再这样，
我为什么那么在乎一个人？
有必要为了那么一点点而不开心吗？

i want back my S size~

2011-02-24T20:56:00.003+08:00

now only i realise that,
is very hard to keep fit....
its my 4th days to diet,
not dare to eat much at all...
no rice also,except 24-2-2011.....
@.@

the feeling of,
hungry but cannot eat==''
haih,
i'm not like last time...
can eat as much as i want to~

no more exercise,
weight gain gradually.....T.T
on the other hand,
i wish to save some money for my Desires..
there's a lot man~~@.@

bored with taking public transport life,
i wish i could have a car...
really...
really....
really wanted it sooooooooooo
MUCH!!!!!
>.<
when can i do that huh?

is still have 2months to go,
i will left my colledge...
don't feel sad at all,
i feel worry about my job,
i scare i couldn't get a job~
then....
then....
how?!

worrying.........

4th months~

2011-02-24T00:56:00.003+08:00

❤yay~

its our 4th month being together....

hahah~~

undenied that,

i'm so happy....

we're still follwing our popeye olive rules~

odd month,he will buy the cake

and

of course even month left for me~

maybe others might think we are too free or whatever~

this is popeye olive story,

haha.....i don't care~

a strawberry cheese cake lighten up my night with the romance with you,my dear~ ^^

i lurve you~

我看得到~

2011-02-23T11:28:00.003+08:00

没事了，
没事了.......

担心死了，

安然欣喜的一个拥抱，
让我安心......

以后还有好多好多事要面对....
***

从前
受过伤，
受伤，
当然会害怕....
但还是选择勇往直前
不同的是，

不再像以前执着了....=)

从新出发啦！！！！！

2011-02-22T16:48:00.002+08:00

起床....
吃....
上网.....
看戏.....
吃.....
喝茶.....
睡觉....

已经三个星期假期，
每天早上还是不舍的我温暖的床
可爱的hippo~

很懒散....

过完年，
觉得自己胖了...
虽然大家都说还好==
唉，
那是因为我高....掩饰了...

自己是最了解不过
走多两步就觉得累
最近有吃buffet啦~
饭又吃一大碗~
每天呆在家......

不过~
我要改变！！
我要早睡早起！
我要减肥！
我要......

很多东西要哦~~~~
囧

❤happy outing.....

2011-02-21T01:31:00.006+08:00

sunday morning rain is falling~

*pause...
yet,this sunday morning is a cloudy day,nope...
should be afternoon~.~

after get prepared
popeye pick me,then heading to cineleisure to watch movie~
popeye gonna busy for many days after that
so~
today might be movie Marraton~XD

after get ticket of 'the mechanic'
having lunch at 'our' restaurant~XD
haha....without this cuisine,
our popeye olive wouldn't came out...
i remember last time when i work at ikano,
my lunch was having there...

therefore,
in a mischivous mind...
i posted popeye cartoon song's lyrics on his wall~
so.....
gradually,popeye olive came out~.~

❤

the set is almost same with kfc~

but i think this is better~ LOL...................

oops~~~ popeye is eating Popeye's

after lunch and movie~
we're heading to flying kite with popeye and his brother^^
is a cloudy day~^^
popeye's spiderman and ultraman kite not work~
he bought me another one~haha
winnie the pooh~^^

popeye ignore to take photo~
but,there is too much of people~
others kite keep block our kite~
some more there's not so windy.....
i wish i could go to the beach with popeye~ to fly kite~

after all,
going back to the curve 2nd round movie~
SANCTUM^^

it was a nice movie,
took my breath away,and
i could feel how strong are those people heart for survive~
salute~!
haha,even its just a movie~

thanks my dear for the outing,
i'm very happy & enjoy~
love you.......

a visit...

2011-02-20T03:29:00.003+08:00

born in healthy,medium rich family...
never know what is the feeling of without parents love~

but,
they are not...

i'm still young,
i don not know what's the feeling of ages....

but,
some of them can't even walk....

a special visit to orphan house & old folks home with family...
giving food and daily uses to them.....

by looking them,
i know i was so lucky that i have lot of things....
i have a perfect family,even some of them don't really understand me

*****

unfortunately...
we done something wrong...
we gave the wrong orphan house(still have another poor house need us more)

we gave too much rice to old people,
person in charge saying they don't need so much rice~

@.@''
next time we know what to do...

i wish i could join again,
try my best to do what i can do for them....

我是糖糖~ *礼物

2011-02-19T02:52:00.015+08:00

this is my new style of droping post @ blogger~

my new nickname~糖糖 ^^
don't know since when,i got this new name....but is just for him~
ummm,not because i look sweet(@.@)...just simply translate from 'sweetie'
of course,he got a nickname to match with me too~ which is豆豆~.~
wonder am i going to call this name大庭广众？LOL

i realise that all my post were emo,angry,moody...
except this post....

when i saw my sis posting blog,uploading valentine's day picture...
makes me wanted to do the same thing so much~

is almost 4months~
mine douce &feve album and his popeye&olive album photo added more and more^.*
but seems that,mine album lots of present picture,hahaha~~~

this is my cutie hippo~it has a ribbon on top,so she is a female@.@
i cant sleep well without her^^
i receive her out of sudden,a big suprise from him.... 21th octocber 2010
it was my very first time receive flower from my lover~so touching...

4th november 2010(my graduation show)

this is my unforgetable birthday~20th birthday.....

purple always represented romance~

thanks popeye for this necklace,amethyst

i love you~

popeye always dont tell me what gift he wanna give~

this was my christmas present on 2010~ A DIY lomo camera~

某日，糖糖闹别扭...要棒棒糖~ 其实只是随便乱说~XD

那个有点笨笨的popeye，隔天就给我这个~

哈哈哈哈哈哈~^^

有人说，男朋友不能送鞋给女朋友，因为那表示送走女朋友~所以要给回rm1~

是吗？我不迷信啊~ 但我还是给啦~ 因为不想豆豆送我走~XD

popeye buy me this from Langkawi,a small gift~

but i like it~
adorable like me~~~~^^*perasanING

my valentine's day present~ no suprise because is i ask for this.....

but i love it~i can wear it everyday,like wearing *amethyst*

the noob popeye bring back sands and shells from Langkawi~

and a liquor botol...........but at the end,most of the shells cant fit into the botol~
try so hard to finish the liquor but at the end the botol cant use,

noob popeye~ but....... olive love it~^^

so, i suggest to buy 2 jars,so we can make for each other~^^

happy valentine's day eve~

2nd time i get flower from popeye~

at mamak stall !!!! LOL.................................

doesn't matter,most important is...it is purple color~

and it is from my dear popeye~.~

收到那么多礼物~

当然开心。。。。

开心，

因为那是你。。。。。。

只想把所有关于我们的事情记下

只怕有一天，

老人痴呆症病发时，

还能回故从前的一点一滴~

slowly gone...

2011-01-06T21:45:00.003+08:00

everything was perfect at the beginning,
but slowly...it gone....

at start,
sweet talk everyday...
i can feel the romance always~

but now,
slowly gone....
no more sweet talk to me...

at start,
no matter how tired,you will sms with me till late night untill
i fall into sleep~
but slowly....
u will tell me you feel tired and
you need to sleep~

at start,
no matter what i've did,
you will not angry.....
but slowly,
small mistake i made you already show me faces~

why guys,all same?
heart-less.....

i really don't know how long our relationship can survive

what can i do?

holiday~

2010-12-30T15:27:00.002+08:00

tomorrow holiday~
but i wanna work~can i??
i need money so much~!

i swear,i want to get 7k within a year~
or else....
how can i survive?
how to go london??

haih...
now my maybank left rm18....hahaXD
hongleong left rm??.....lol

i don't even have money to go school~
what a pity life,my house don't even have dinner==''
i cooked brunch almost everyday for this week~

everyday get up,
cook...eat...online...
oh no....

god bless me,hope i get weekend job on january~~~i need
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

T.T
perfect nightmare~

体会.

2010-12-29T17:05:00.002+08:00

很快很快~
一起两个月了~
也许大家都经过了爱得你死我活的曾经，
现在总算了解什么是‘简单’.....

对于自己，
我还是很难改变那四年里的生活方式，
依然很执着于许多小事....

例如：
为什么一回到家不找我...或者
为什么你跟朋友出去都不跟我出？（但其实是早上才见面）

也许，真的....
有时候不是他不在乎你，而是你太在乎对方~
所以总是觉的还欠那么一些些~

习惯了每天和他见面，但突然他说要加班你就会很没心情..
试想想，
你们还没一起时，
你也没和他出去，那为什么当时不觉得没心情。

昨晚，
看到留言....
他说：原来，当你失望的时候，你宁愿什么都不要，以免失望慢慢变成绝望~

哇，他在说谁？

后来问他，他说他在指我~
也对得~但应该说....
不要期望太高~以免失望太大咯~

*终

~tu me manques~

2010-12-06T00:25:00.002+08:00

popeye says:

couple is easy,
i love you,you love me...
i treat you good,you treat me good....
don't measure how much you give or you take....
stay simple relationship and happy always...

the most positive and easy mind~
i was doubting myself,
i can do it??
i still need some time to get it on i guess,
i was too long time in a complicated relationship=='' oh no

one thing....
we always meet at night,
after dinner,
i really don't know where can we goT.T

and we don't talk much on phone~
i worry that , our topic will less and less...

you promised me,you will never leave me....but
i afraid one day, you will say this to me
''i feel that we don't have much topic,we don't even have the same mind
and think.....i think we being friend is better''

haizzzzzz

what a life~
i know i think too much:'(

troblesome

2010-12-01T15:29:00.002+08:00

its been a month plus~
popeye & olive 's story began....

many wonder,
why are you with him??
haha....i wondered too....

i can't accept bad comment from others at first,
but gradually....i admit it~
nothing much,just love...
easy,
relax,
no stress,
caring,
and happy love~that's what i want...

mr.S always complaine me,
judge a book by its cover.....
lolXD hey,i'm just saying ok...but i did not^^

physically,maybe there's still lots of comment blaX3
yet,
i don't even care

about my family,some of them support but most of them not..
is okay,
time can proove everything

we will always happy to belongs together ,i believe
by:olive

my second...........

2010-11-15T22:42:00.003+08:00

time flies....
since that day he said break uo to me,
i'm feeling ignoring him so much~!! i really do....

finding a way to reject,refuse....
finally,just two months...we broke...

but,
things always unbelieveable and incredible
soon,i get another guy...

at first,i was doubting that am i right??
but,
eventually...i accepted him on my birthday

i think it could be a good start after being naive for 4years...
now,new life started....

hanging out everyday(almost) with him,
i know many people commenting about us...
our outlooking bla X3....
but who cares??
the most important is being happy together,thus
a new relationship started with this possitive mind

but,i wondered so much that
is it all guys are the same??
treat you like princess at the beginning,but
dump you like a king dump down those 'wife' after all huh??

is like....
i just want to tell you that
i give you my heart,but
can you please keep it nicely? or....at lease you don't dump it??

温柔~

2010-08-30T01:21:00.002+08:00

他常说，
你为什么一点点事就发脾气？

她对我说，
凡事冷静点....没有人定的顺你的脾气....

他们说，
你不要整天酱容易发脾气.....

某某人，她也曾说，
你不要酱大小姐脾气啦....

不男不女的她说，
你做工一不爽那个顾客一定会摆臭脸....

一个我和她很好的‘她’，
她没说...但她行动上告诉我说....
-你脾气不好，我不敢麻烦你--

心碎的声音
只有我自己听得见~
唯有伪装自己，把自己情绪埋起来....
才不会引起以上的‘好’共鸣...........
我想是这样，
看到这篇唯一一篇中文的部落格的你.....
别怀疑，是我，喜欢紫色的我。
不要因为这篇文而关心我，那只会让我觉得你在可怜我~
我没事啊~还是那个三八的我....没有不一样，没有不开心....
只是从此，我伪装我自己~

my lovely Kepong~~

2010-08-23T02:41:00.002+08:00

haiz....
today see new houses at setia alam~
so far away from kepong....
if it is comfirmed~will shift to there next year~
omg
have to leave kepong~
i don't know is a good new or bad news~
maybe new environment is good for me~
as in,next year i no more being a student~hmmmm

and,
i'm so damn desparate with my salary...
its takes so damn long time to get~
gosh~! i can die if the stupid head master still don't approve the cheque for me....

GOD bless me please~!
T.T

what's on my mind?

2010-08-21T02:48:00.006+08:00

i guess that i really a bad attitude girl
from the view of my friend,i'm kind of
hot temperate,easy get angry....
blablabla......
if i were a good temper person,
you all will not saying me like that...

haih
i think i should have to calm down and think before do....or say
i know,i'm bad....

or maybe,
being a fake person is better than showing everything on face?
i guess so.....
this world is full of lies,fakeness.....cheating~! no doubt...

by the way,
club with girls again last night,a good night but suckz song....
i miss dj fuzz seriously~!lol....
addicted~

well,i know what i'm doing~!
if you wanna comment about me,just comment.....
i will not care ,like last time...
i'm hurt,that way u guys think about me....i'm so lost~!!!!

purple valentine

2010-08-16T12:01:00.002+08:00

yesterday morning:
i recieved text,girls dated us to go club on this thirsday~
i'm ok with it so i just promised them~
excited~~

yesterday noon:
singing k with my auntie~~
haha....it has been long time din't meet them~
having great time ^^

yesterday evening:
having dinner with my family,because my it was brother's birthday...
many dishes my mum ordered
fish,prok,prawn,vege,tofu,chicken...wow!!
damn full~after that having dessert at metro prima~
durian dessert~~hoho!! nice ^^v
but,i heard my dad they discuss about we're going to shift to somewhere else...
maybe shah alam....*0* die hard........

last night:
chit chat on msn~with him.....and bad gurl~
don't know why,i think of purple valentine out of sudden...
and i count the date,
omg! its on thursday...
the date we girls hanging out....
but,so bad,i never had had a purple valentine~
i wrote on faceook,i'm useless....
my name amethyst but never had a nice purple dayT.T
but THEN!!!
i received msg this morning from him,
omg.....he misunderstand me...
he thought i purposely wrote that to let everyone know he is useless!!
omg man!!! my brain gotta burst!!
totally WRONG!! i just wanna give some hint ok,but then....
a HINT become a HURT??!!!!

**this world is so MIRACLE & AMAZING man....
chill~~~
life still wonderfull...aiks
peace *.*v

i'm back to blogger again

2010-08-14T23:42:00.002+08:00

i viewed back my post,wow....its november 2009...last year~
oh my gosh~
many things happened within 9months...

things change,no more ahnging out with colledge friends such frequently like those time~ cause something happened between me and one of my colledge friend~
i guess he's totally lost all of the trust on me....

few months ago~
bad girls gang started....
we really had fun during party~enjoy every move and music together~
unfortunately,this gang....seems doesn't stay long...
we have our own vision and lifestyle,guess that we need something/somebody to gather us again@.@

sigh~~

i'm not single anymore~ get back together with him~
mine story with him like a legend....never end....~~~~
i also don't understand~

haih~
i don't know,i feel unbalance recently~psycologicaly unbalance~
but,i knew that i'm so lucky i got a lot of things....
i knew,and i would thanks to GOD give me a lot~

lomography~
i start get addicted on lomography...
keep buying lomo camera~haih
to satisfied my desires~i work part time promoter...
i stopped my dance,piano and ballet class~~
i wish i can earn money myself to get what i want~
i need a laptop for my works and assignment....seriouly need it!!

my friend said blogger is a time killer~
but,for me....its an entertainment when you don't have money to hang out~
to go party~
to tea~
to movie~~~~bla3.....

i'll keep update my blog~~
to write what i'm feeling inside~
XD

changing pattern

2009-11-09T15:49:00.000+08:00

its been 7years since primary school graduate....
i just met my primary schoolmate at facebook,kinda excited
they really had a big different...

some of them i can't even remember,but some of it still remember their name clearly in my mind...like those always bully me...XD

well,
not only 7 years can change a person...
even 7 months,7weeks or 7days....

i know its been some change between me and my friends..
really don't know how to descride,between..
the changes is just a fortnight...

i realize that when there is a scar;
it will be a scar forever.....
imperfect anymore...
i was thinking that,i've tried my best ever....
you do the rest....

written:9th november 3:58pm

how's life gonna be after colledge?

2009-10-17T03:23:00.000+08:00

i love paris~~

last year july,i enter this colledge
-carven academy of fashion-

and now...its been a year pass...
flashing back,what i've been learn??
and what i've been learn in a year~

undenied that,this is the life i wish for...
even some times it is tired with taking public transport,
even some times been busy for my assignment,
but,this is what i want....

i learnt many about clothing,fashion,designing,and exspecially
DRAWING!!!!
i enter this colledge with 0 mind of drawing....
but now,i know how to draw^^
between,i get know many friends,and their weirdo mind~haha XD
and we use to hang out always~
many different places we hang with,different cafe and different food...
i really can say that,this is colledge life!!! haha

well,

i start thinking something recently...
how's my life going br after my colledge?

my first planning is,work for 2 or 3 years in malaysia to save money~
at the same time apply working visa to go london....
so that i could get some experiences perhaps...by that time i think i'm age of 23...

i said last year that i will get famous when 10years later~
i think i could do it*.*
after been at london 2years,i plan to go PARIS!hahaha
this is what actually i want....by that time will be 25~

work at there untill i get flying clouds in my career....
hehe....when the time i come back to malaysia,
i'm 29years old....hoho

then i can build up my own brand....hehe

yet,
i knew i'm dreaming....
but,i really hope i can done it!!

*i love paris

falling out-keyshia cole

2009-10-16T16:52:00.000+08:00

here is a song lyrics to share...
****is speaking out my words...

Been sitting thinking about you and I and wondering why were not getting along
so frustrated cause what we had was a happy home
I don't know what the situation is but I can tell in the way we kiss ,
we don't talk no more it feels better when I'm alone...

Sometimes I feel like there's no getting through to you
like you don't appreciate all that I do...
you gotta show me that you want me to stay,
don't turn and walk away

*baby I'm slowly falling out of love with you...
*I don't know what to do,
*how did we end up here this way?
*what are we gonna do?

I'm slowly falling out.. baby
we're tripping on silly things
boy I need you to meet me halfway,
if you want me to be with you..

I remember when, I'd be with my friends
you checked on me and made time to call
but how things have changed?
now I don't hear from you at all.

don't let your pride get in the way,
for something we worked so hard
don't throw it away...
I've been tryna make you see
everything you need is right here with me

Slowly falling
slowly falling
....
How did we end up here this way?
......
Slowly falling
slowly falling
.........
How did we end up here this way?

WRITTEN: 16th october 09' 4:57pm

4th october 09'

2009-10-16T02:30:00.000+08:00

me and my sister
on that day dinner~

my make up^^
below is my model~

model:faye kor(keyboardist in SKY band)
age :16
bla x3
everybody was busy preparing show on 4th october...
i'm going to dance hiphop-new school hiphop and krump
between,
a group of people will dance on that day too....
i heard is ''traditional dance'' at first(i was thinking that,well...it will not clash with our dance)
but then,after that i heard is ''modern dance''(and i was thinking that,modern dance,hmmmm,not same with hiphop still....then no clashing)
but,3rd time....
haih,i looked at the timetable for 4th oct's dinner,it wrote
''HIPHOP DANCE''......song:crazy frog

BOOM!!!!!!(sound of bom/lighthing)

my group start worry about it>,<'' we scare audience may compare our dance
i wish we will do better than them,honostly,as this is our 2nd time performe......

22nd september 09(rehearsal day):

i bring along those dresses for fitting too...
i remembered that,i didn't sleep whole night to done the dress ==''
that feeling was killing o.0

everybody were stand by,included my sister(she was in band-keyboardist)
everybody done the performe except 'crazy frog'
i wondered why....
hmmmmm,is that they too confident with themselves?or,they had too much of experience so they think they needn't to do the rehearsal?

pressure ++

well,as a leader,i should do something about it...
i told my member that,the most important is we done our job nicely...perfectly....
will do....
don't think about is they do better than us or else.....
finally,they done a good job....
crazy frog;they just test the music...
by comparing,our songs is better BUT...the effect came out with a piece of shit!!!bad sound's effect because our songs in mp3 file or maybe another reason;still don't know@.@

pressure ++++

if,the songs couldn't fix.....how?!-.-

crazy frog...

THE STAGE...

BUSM youth band >>>> SKY <<<<<
too bad that BUSM dancing group don't have group photo....
keep it for next year perhaps....

its me!!! hahahahaha

my face looked nervous~
i don't really know what am i doing on that time...
i just dance,danCE,daNCE,DANCE...XD

me,jack,fong2,faye,yong2

BUSM youth group photo~
yeah!!i hope more youth could join us^^

appreciation:
thanks: my group member-yong2,szewei,puikheng,jinjin,zhihong > SKY band > crazy frog >foongyee,shirley,xiaohui,xiaofung,yap,cecelia,wenhui,yunxin,may,children dancing and singing group,GAIA bistro....bla3

special thanks: my daddy,mummy,fongfong....thanks for being care for me and support me to do all these!!!
^,^

written : 3:41am 16th octocer 2009

sweet before bitter

2009-10-12T05:19:00.000+08:00

i've been busy after malacca trip...
its totally mad me up....
rushing to cheras for hiphop performance's practice and sewing dresses....
both deathline on 4th october(new year celebration of my religion)~

last week,i did not attend class for a whole week...
i almost forgot to inform teacher about it..
my friends told me that i might get warning letter...
yet,i did explaine after all....
i'm doing those dress for a whole week,didn't sleep as a normal human...
hanging up at the night,in fact night is more peace without the 2 monkeys's noice...huhu
but actually was,they will ''play'' my sewing machine...
i was so scared any accident happen
to avoide,its better that i work out at night~

well,fortunately...
i manage to finish 3 dresses on that day....
actually should be four,but badly one of it couldn't fit...
so sad of it T.T

the 2nd girl from left
that is my 'result'...
that day i was too busy with my performance
not much photo of my dress=,=
i learn a lot from the process of those dress's making
i knew i still have a lot to learn....
hmmmmm....XD

some times i was thinking that
why do i learn so many things?
i knew basic make-up,hairstyle....blaX3

that is why i was so busy on that night(4th oct)...
but,honestly...
for those make up done by me....
100% much better than those not done by me....
hahahahaha!!!!
*paiseh

written on:12th oct 2009 5:36am

malacca trip 11-9-09>>>13-9-09

2009-10-10T05:00:00.000+08:00

since everybody is busy for their future for 2years...
its time to take a rest~haha
the first time having a trip with secondary school friends last month~
exciting~7 of us went to malacca...should be 8;but unfortunately yokji having chicken pox~too bad he couldn't join us~
we went on friday night,around 9pm....
start photoshooting on the way to malacca~

it is almost 1am when we arrived...quite late-.-

hotel sisty-nine~hehe
checking in....

after drop down our lugage,we went for supper...
but,when we going out,receptionist told us we've been complain by others~huhu
so sorry,we are too excited....haha^^

having supper near hotel~
melacca's special...i think can't found in kl..malay's mamak burger^^
yummy~

our breakfast^^
chicken rice~tasty!!!

red house

old school building~i love it

nice wall~

time to chill~
too hot at melacca's jonker street~

delicious tart~mocha flavour~

the most horroble food
super spicy taiwanese hotdog!!!!
i can't even talk after eat it and keep ''crying''

girls group~fafa~ling~ and me(bik)

gang photo....miao holding camera
oops!too small...can't see

gang's racing~hahaXD
at pahlawan...^^

nice view from top....
but its too small=,=
since yokji can't us...we bought souvenir for him...
and maybe we would go there again...cause many food we've missed,satay celok,nyonya food,dim sum....blablabla....aiksss

even thought is just a small trip,but i do really enjoyed~
hmmmm....i hope next time we could go pulau-pulauS together^^
hahaXD

written:10th oct 2009 5am

alvy's birthday...

2009-08-31T16:39:00.000+08:00

i was thinking how to celebrate alvy's birthday since a month ago from her birthday~
because every time, me and alvy know that...
only we are the organiser for every birthday~nobody else~
she :why always we are the one??
me :..............because,
others will bever bother;but just to co-operate...

so,
i could make it something special on her day;perhaps~
i really can't hope that they will prepare for her....
except ashley....or ivan....so,i hope i can make it~

ashley told me that,she would like to have a big photo frame...
but,she couldn't found it in the market....
so,we decide to handmake one for her~

i told ash that i've got an idea...which make a photo wheel for her~
the eye of malaysia~
so,we can put everybody's picture on the wheel~

2 days before

her birthday,ash went to my house...
we buy all the materials needed...
we make whole night~until the next day 7am~ >>touching<<
hahahaha!!!

a day before

i was busy to get their picture to print out and stick on the ''wheel''
and busy to think about the dress code~fuuuiii~~~~
at night,she know that i'm sure headache of the dress code and stuff~
she said:don't need to be so complicated~as simple as you can~
i know she knew that i'm getting stuck on preparing...
she even give me an dress code,but,i don't want to let her worry about it...
cause she isn't an organiser now,she should enjoy her day that we prepare for her~
right???

on the day,

we went to kota damansara (star village) to celebrate her birthday...
unfortunately,something happened...
someone was late 3hours,she make all of us become emotion...
haih....
she did apologize to us,but....
things happened,i just can say...
sorry my partner,can't give you a perfect birthday...
and yet,she was ill on that day too~
its really bad....
ashley said too....

i really hope it won't happen next time~
=,<''

but,she was happy when receive our present...
alvy: this is the most special birthday present that i never got it before~as i've got everything that i need.....^^

written:31th august 2009 5:12pm

guys....what's wrong??

2009-08-03T01:29:00.000+08:00

long time didn't post blog....
since my computer dump me down...>.<''

and,
i don't understand what happen to few of my close friends...
especially guys.....

its seems something wrong with the position of moon and sun~
moon doesn't receive light from sun....
so,it may affected some human being...
specially with male physical...for sure not included gay
this phenomenon happen causes some of my friends become
super EMOTIONAL...

and,
i was getting confusing with them...

p/s:lii's theory....
copy right reserved

written:3rd august 2009 1:43am

UNFORGETABLE birthday~=.<''

2009-07-04T03:35:00.000+08:00

yesterday was pauline's birthday...
we went to look out point(again) for the celebration on thursday~
why do i say it as ''unforgetable'' birthday??
roll down....you will know...=,=hurhur....very unfortunately...
we went there after school....
all of us are dress in black,as i told them the dress code will be black^^
of course,except pauline(birthday girl)...
i told her dress code will be white~(nyeik~)
when she reach school;she was getting shock by us...whole class in black...kaka!!

*king,me,alvy,ashley

keep snaping when taking order~hehe
between,the waitress was getting confuse because we keep making noise...
haha,well.....girls what...haha

huge drinks~
mine called 'kalamasi'...is a sour juice...plum,something like that~
and beside is mango juice~

all of us...hehe
too small,all these photo has been resize..
so,cant see clearly...
after dinner,
we went up to....a small park like that...better night scene there...
we prepare the cakes and present before pauline went up
she was shock because she didn't know that we will do this for her...
she said it's creative...haha....

chocolate cake...
happy birthday to you~~

me and pauline~
when all the things go on happyly....
when the time we dismiss
vincent's car was unfortunately got a crash by someone>.<
we ask the jockey,he said it was someone called ''harta'',a malay junk crash it...
they said they will pay to my friend by deduce the guy's salary...
but,don't know it is true....

photo not so clear...
haih....
but,one thing funny was...
when we asked the jockey...
he came to us and said :saya tau u org ramai...dunggu jap....blaX3
hahahahaha....because of we wearing black and many of us...he thought we are....haha!! imagine~~~

haih....but my friend quite gentlement....
even his car been crashed....he still sent us back to lrt station and home...and said:i will make sure you girls get home safe...
^^
hope everythings all right....and the guy will pay the repair fees....

written:4:14am 4th july 09'

happy birthday to may~~

2009-07-01T03:16:00.000+08:00

crazy driver:shangching
bored passenger:sook may
pretty passenger:me...kakakaka

we went to ''full house'' for may's birthday~
nice place as last time been at ''look out point''
chit chat and have fun~
haha.....
these are some photo to share~

five of us~
badly teck giaw not there....
we miss you~sis giaw~haha

they are notjust restaurant but some accessories~
nice hat^^

nice interior decoration there~take away lots of shot~~hehe
three of us~girls~

my new boy friend~~hehe

cutie car~~~

birthday girl~me~

wenyi~may~ SWEET =3

after form5....
all secondary school friends less meet~
but,we still keep in touch....
i hope....our friendship will stay forever~
i'll really appreciate~

love you guys~~
written:30th june 09 3:51am

i'm confusing...

2009-06-24T21:43:00.000+08:00

some times i really want to ask you....
what's wrong with you....???!!!
you seems to be good but what you shown is very bad to me....

maybe our relationship now is better for you...
but,do you know that is not good for me at all....
but,is your choice.....

i can't say much about it....

wish you good luck.....

written:24th june 09 9:56pm

its LOAD me...

2009-06-16T19:16:00.001+08:00

amazingly....today i reach home at 5:45pm...
normally is 7pm....>.<

now starting to do the lingerie....the show is end of july...
i think this month and next month i will mad....
but,its my choice...i choose to help carven...as to get more experience
and
knowledges~

lots of things coming around...graduation show,mifa,moda...
about those competition...i really have to work for it man!!
-last minute-seems is my habit....too bad...
have to overcome it...

22th july....piano practical...T.T
i wish i could do it nicely~
oh,panic....
luckyly its during my school holiday,so i have some time to practice~^^
month of july,i've been study for a year...
flashing back,what i've done??
fortunately still have some....skills,techniques,friends,experience...
so....one more year to go~~
gambateh~

*and 29th of july....
*i will never forget this date...3rd years!

*-the end-

written: 16th june 2009 7:00pm

a simple and memoriable birthday~

2009-06-15T16:25:00.000+08:00

birthday girl and may~~hehe

me~may~teck giaw~

windy night~~

happy birthday to wenyi~~
hehe....
last night we went to ampang look out point~
a nice place...windy place~
as i suffer of the hot weather everyday...that was wonderful for me~
i give a present to her~
last year i bought a small monkey(pinky) for her but this year...
i think should give something usefull...
so i choose a mascara for her...branded ''kate''...
i like that brand too~

we having western food there...stickING~kaka
with....''arabian mint tea''....sound special^^
because we saw the table behind us having it....or we just take a try on it...

looking at the night sence...chating with friends....and having a weird tea...
haha....

they keep adding sugar on it...as the taste was weird...but i didn't do that...
after all...we walked around and taking some photo~

a simple and memoriable night~^^

written on:15th june 09 4:37pm

this is the end....

2009-05-16T12:57:00.000+08:00

i never though that we will just end these way....
time separated us far away....
even ur image were so blur in my mind...
but i still can feel a lil bit warm from your voice
and
your unseen shadow....

i remember last year about this period....
same things happened...
i can't even accept all the truth happened on me...
but how about now??
a year pass....the 1st lesson you give me last year....did i learn some thing??
i think yes...

but i'm still a human.....a normal girl
no matter how strong am i....i still can't control my tears...
flowing down....
we have been together for 2years and 10months....
such a long time....

you choosen your way....your future...your career...
you never think about our future....
from your voice i knew that how deep our love;is just like the deep of child pool
you left a song for me-'who i still can love to'....that is should be happy or sad??
i dont know....it was your heart voice....
heart broken you know???!!!!
we loved but cant....
why??
you promised me to have a license...fetch me....
you promised we will having a trip at genting....
you promised me you will make a spectacle for me...
but now??
where is those promised??
how can you did all to me??no use that you saying apologise to me!!
i cant accept at all
but what can i do??
i just told myself...
let you go...i shouldn't be your weight...because from your voice...i know
you will never come back again....

i wonder... how much of time i need to get you out from my mind??
one months?one year??or ten years??
i was lost

you are my first love....and forever love....
i will keep you inside the deepest of my heart...untill the day i forget you....
i knew it will never happen....
some times even i feel that i shouldn't start a relationship with you...
but now flashing back....no,i did not regret to did so....

i learnt a lot....which i counldn't forget...
the most teenages time we belongs together....
all the happinest are still fresh in my mind....
i cant forget....

its need time....
to being return to my single life....
you are not 1 of the character in my life anymore...
the feel is just like being lost an important thing in my life...

29th july 2006-15th may 2009....

what will happen in the future??i don't know....its time to wait for it...
my life i've lost you....forever...

16th may 09....1:34pm

happy birthday~~

2009-05-03T23:42:00.000+08:00

Don't you feel that this cake a lil bit weird...??
the white chocolate on top was larger than the cake's size...
is it because of the angle....??

no no no....this is a super small size cake...
my eldest sister birthday~~ (not yet buy present for her:-P)
so,i'm having dinner at ''purple cane'' with my family last week~

nice looking??
i was thinking that why my sis choose this restaurant to celebrate her birthday...
but never try never know~so.....
it was a restaurant which all food cooked with tea....
red tea,green tea,lychee tea...bla3
when i took order...i looked at the menu,question mark coming out...walked on my head
those food's ingredients was....weird....=.=
so,we just pick some food randomly....just to try^^

finally,W.......WO.......WOW..........i almost forget myself when eating those food!!
it was delicated...tasty...nice looking,great smell...
wakakaka~~

and this....
dessert~
those were ''tang yuen''....
hey,serious man....the menu wrote ''tang yuen''
haha....but its good taste~~

cocktail??margarita??
nope....its looked alike but actually not...
it was a super duper....sour drink...
its called ''good old days青涩岁月''(written on menu)
its same like margarite...full of salt on the side of the cup...
because it was super sour,so this drink was served with this size~
hmmmm.....nice to drink...
like an appertizer~~
hope to be there again^^
yummy~~~~

(written: 4th may 09 12:15am)

models~~

2009-04-24T00:03:00.001+08:00

at back stage of stylo fashion show~~
white wedding gown~
she so pretty and charm~unfortunately i don't know her name=.=

this is a purple dress from albert king~

i love it~

when she wore up this dress,i quickly take foto with her~

her name is SUN,and she is pretty too~~

huhu.....what this?? toilet man...

but is moveable~

just for temporaly....

(written : 24th april 09 12:27am)

scream out loud!!!

2009-04-23T23:15:00.001+08:00

so,so what!!
i'm still a rock star!!
yuhoo!! after class straight go low yat's red box~
just 10minutes to be there~
few months didn't sing out loud.....so,its really fun!!
and the most fantastic thing is....its just need RM9!!!
and two free drinks some more~
friends! what are you waiting for??go ahead...

huh....where is me??not because of i'm taking camera~
is been leaving~
my dad calling~T.T so have to leave earlier=,=

hope to be there again....yeah!!
(written: 22th april 09 11:58am)

why so sensitive??

2009-04-22T02:15:00.000+08:00

is midnight now~
doing my design class's homework~
think about something happened just now while taking a short rest~

then,clicking www.blogger.com and signed in~

--------

just a lil bit late reply your message~
why did you angry??i did explain~
i wondered why,
we always quarrel with those tiny things....

last week,i was angry with you did not answer my phone~
you told me that don't be so nervous....and relax~
but,
just now when i was reply you late....
you got angry on me.....

even thought you've apologize with that.....
but
its in unwilling way....
=,=

next week is your exam....
wish you good luck mydear~

written: 2:25am 22th april 09

shopping day~

2009-04-11T23:13:00.000+08:00

menicure and pedicure has been started~
honoustly,i'm not really interested on it~but i knew it was part of fashion~
and the reason i don't like the class is it put on monday morning...
after that continue by cutting class,
then computer class~~~~
oh!!no....
T.T thats make me feel annoying...and....i get headache on that day~
haisssss.....why make it all in monday,it seems that i started hate to go to school...
NO!! i'd love to be in school....but some times its really mad me....
and
our super special lecturer(cutting class)....
i believe you never met before....
i think this phrase only my classmate will understand...
well~let it be....i've used to it

since class has been started....
a lot of $$$$$ spended....
last week went to times. and sg.wang....
with my mad friends ''wenyi'' and ''sook may''....
they are my secondary school friend....we used to be nonsense together in class@.@
well~
i miss my school*.*
i've bought a lot of things...
included my wallet,this wallet i've waiting for one and half year~haha...
waiting for the promotion...haha(for poor fellow)
and a make up box~cost me 140...=.=
its been 9months i study in carven academy....
it can't be denied that i learned a lot of things....
i don't even know how to draw before,but now....
i can do it,even it still not good enough....i know.....

patient.....

my patient almost exhausted....

aiksss......(written: 17th april 09 8:33pm)

loading.........

i'm back!!!

2009-03-23T22:20:00.000+08:00

just came back from Redang trip~(23th april)
hmmmmm....
if you ask me ''do you have fun??''

yea,of course...

even...
i've spend a lot of money on souvenior~
a lot money on junk food~
but i'm still telling you that
it's fun...and i enjoy it very much
and i feel totally relax there~
hahaha

finally,i've got time to write blog^^
its been few weeks after redang...
totally get mad after relax...haizz...
doing triumph and dresser at the same time!!

in the process of doing triumph's folio
i almost give up...these 2 things happen at the same time...
but,
thanks to my friends who helped me for the triumph thingy...
only that,
i can manage to hand in half hour before the date line...^^
after triumph,busy for doing dresser at stylo...
a lot of fun between friend...haha
is a good experience...i met alot of designers there...
melinda looi,betrice looi,key ng,lester wong,scott chu,albert king,jonathan cheng,carven ong(my school principle^^)
some of them are really nice and friendly but some of them really.....
@#!$#@$%^$&*^%*#$%@$%#^%&!$@#$

and now (7th april)
TIA result has been come out...
i did not get into top10...
but ah king did it....
congratulation to her~
even i failed,but...is a good try for me...emm,think so...
as i know,i never get won in any competition....haha
what a sorrow life
but,i will never give up....i'll keep trying!!

i believe that my 'sorrow life' will stop soon...hahahahaha

written:8th april 2009 12:40am

busy life~

2009-03-15T20:33:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is my theory exam....
grade 7...
unbelieveable....i'm now grade 7...
i didn't put much effort on it honously...
hope i won't fail....

after exam.....then will be focusing on practical....
so hard....

but,friday....
i'm going redang!!!
yuhooooo!!!!
i'm going with my religion's friend
my religion:Bai Tian Gong Universal Spiritual Movement

is time for me to relax~~~
maybe i can get some inspiration there...^^

but,unfortunately...
you can't go with me....
i hope we can go for a trip together~~
really....

written:15.03.2009 8:52pm
(the time on my post not the exact date,i don't know how to change)

triumph-a secret for women internationally

2009-03-09T00:44:00.000+08:00

triumph...an underwear brand
this year it has a competition..
which is designing underwear:lingerie

this year is the 1st year open to all the design colleague
so,i have the chance~so sorry to all senior...haha

this year Triumph Inspiration Award held at Milan....
the prize is great
1st:15k.....
2nd:10k.....
3rd:5k....
the most important is.....the prize is in EURO

well...
i didn't expect that....
i will;maybe in my dream....
cause...
i'm just a new student in designing field....
and....it has to be choose 30pcs out of....erm....don't know the exact number...will be whole malaysia...
then....choose 10pcs out....
the finalist wil be only 3....
then...the 1st prize only get the chance to get EURO...

erm....the death line is around the corner....end of march...
i've got some idea....but
i don't know how to draw it out...T.T
i'm always stress of this....''my drawing technique''...
but i will try my best...i want to go for this...
as an experience.....
and knowing more about ''bra bra''....hehe

my 1st time competition...so...i hope i can do it well...even not the best of all...
but
at lease the best of me~~

god bless me^^

the first time

2009-03-07T17:26:00.000+08:00

last time...

i don't understand why my sis love to write blog

but now....

i'm writing blog...

haha....clumsy

cause.....write on internet better than booklet...

lazy~~

i'm trying to use english to write only...

as i know that chinese is more easy to express our feelings

yet,i believe that english can do so......

maybe few years later i'm using ''french'' to write as well

haha...

this is my 1st time...writing blog

since then...hope it wil be continue

to be continue.....